Almost Weekend - Yeah!!!!!!!!!!

Been counting down the days and almost time to see my kids again. I miss them so much and I guess that I am also feeling insecure in that I am not spending that much time with them as I would like. I only get to see them for 3 hours twice a week.

When my 4 year old son was 5 months old, I was involved in an accident, busted leg and both arms were broken. He and I had such a close bond I would never had thought it possible. However, with all sorts of contraptions coming out of my arms, I was not able to hold him for over three months.

It took a while to regain that bond, and now I see him so little, it really hurts. However, I have to look at dealing with the issues that are in my control and currently, I only see them the times that I do.

I've been worrying alot lately about things... the divorce is dragging out, the X and her legal team are virtually none responsive to our requests... my relationship with my kids, feels like we are drifting...going out of my mind here.

I have decided though that most of what I am worrying about is out of my control. Yes, I would love to be with my children more often, however right now circumstances do not allow. What is in my control is the times that they are with me... so come this weekend, when they are with me, nothing else will matter; the only purpose would be me and them.

I guess what I am getting at is, when times are difficult, focus on the things that are within your control... slowly but surely, everything else will start to make sense.