An emotional low

So today is one of those days. I saw my kids last on Saturday, and yes, today is only Monday, but I miss them like crazy. I call them every evening to chat with them. My 2 ½ year old almost had me in tears… answered the phone singing me a nursery rhyme…. Barba barba black sheep have you any wool, yes sir, yes sir 3 bags full…

I miss them so badly and Saturday is such a long way off. Its times like today that I feel like pulling out my hair.

I had a long chat with the lawyer today. We were speaking about my frustrations, my worry about my children’s well-being. It does not appear that much more will be happening this year still as the courts are almost in recess for the year end. If we are extremely lucky, and God help me that we are, we can get at least 1 court hearing and the Phyc. evaluations can at least get under way. My eldest boy starts high school next year and I do not want to drag this divorce out any longer… starting high school is difficult enough… new school, new teachers, new pressures.

I am going to try and get some sleep now. That’s the other thing I have learnt, you need lots of rest. A tired mind is an irrational mind and God knows we need to stay rational.

I leave you with this saying I found today and it helped to keep me strong:


Every child comes with the message that God is not yet discouraged of man. ~Rabindranath Tagore