It Sucks to be human...

Emotion, wish it came with a switch!!!!

I had such a good time with my boys this weekend and am just reminded about how much I miss them.

Part of the weekend entailed spending time with the X around. My eldest had his last cricket game of the year and big surprise, she came to watch. On Sunday was the year end presentation and I let a tear out of sheer pride as my boy received an award for bowler of the year. I am so proud of him and what he has accomplished.

Again she was at the presentation and I am not suggesting that she shouldn’t be there, but it is so difficult to remain “unperturbed” by her. Yes, I get that I am allowing her presence to get to me, but if I had a switch for that thing called emotion, this would be so much easier.

I am finding it difficult to be in the same vicinity as she is… I guess I am still angry for what she has done… not just to me, but our family… I found myself wondering lately that could we try again and I start wondering… Then as all of these things play through my mind, I am reminded about the lies, betrayal and hurt… there is absolutely no way that I can trust her again…

Yes, trusting someone is a choice, but my question is how do you trust someone that has repeatedly lied and hurt you?

No ways can I ever be with her… someone please turn off the emotion … I do not love her any longer but I do still care for her even though I can’t stand being around her… gees this is crazy.

I find myself getting angry thinking about the divorce and this custody “battle”. If the rolls were reversed, I was her and she was me… being a man and doing the things she did, at the drop of a dime, she would have custody of the kids… currently, this country we live in is in the middle of an awareness campaign raising awareness of abuse against woman and children… what about us men… in this day and age, men are just as abused, maybe not always physically, but emotionally as well. Far too often, society is quick to blame us men as the big bad wolf… it is a man’s fault if a divorce is on the cards, it is a man that abuses his spouse and the kids…. News flash people, women are just as guilty. Did you know….Half of spousal murders is committed by wives?

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People, times are a changing.


I know that in my 2 previous posts, I advocated looking at things in your control vs. out of your control; I would just like to be the first to acknowledge that it is a lot easier said than done.

The fact remains, we are human and emotion can play havoc on you. I guess the trick is to use that emotion and channel it positively. Sometimes, finding the positive is not always easy, but I have found that the more you do it, the easier it becomes…

What positives do I take out of the weekend past... well, my babies crying for me throws out her pervious accusations that they are afraid of me…that one little positive does bring a smile to my face.

Just imagine you're four years old, and someone makes the following proposal: If you'll wait until after he runs an errand, you can have two marshmallows for a treat. If you can't wait until then, you can have only one--but you can have it right now. It is a challenge sure to try the soul of any four-year-old, a microcosm of the eternal battle between impulse and restraint, id and ego, desire and self-control, gratification and delay... There is perhaps no psychological skill more fundamental than resisting impulse. It is the root of all emotional self-control, since all emotions, by their very nature, led to one or another impulse to act.